I Wish I Had More Glue

Once in a while, little things from the past show up to remind you of lessons you have learned in life and what might really be important

Today I am sitting here at my kitchen table which is now my new work space, I’m writing reports, and out of the corner of my eye I see something on the table. It looks like something that needs to be wiped up. Like a spill. I tried to wipe it up and then I remembered.

It’s super glue.

And like a flood, the memory of that super glue comes back to hit me. I suddenly find myself feeling super emotional.

I had a crafty kid. She LOVED herself some glue and glitter and beads and all the messy things. And I remember this particular super glue incident well. She was working on one of those little projects of her and she got glue on this brand new table of mine. It messed up the finish.

I was mad.

REALLY MAD.

I remember yelling at her and I remember her crying. And as I sit here today and look at that glue, all I can think of is how much I wish I could have that moment back to do differently.

It’s glue. On a table. And I made her feel bad for that.

Granted she should have been more careful, and she should have had paper under her project, all things she knew. But she was a kid.

My nest is empty now, and I miss my kids. And I miss their mess. And I miss their noise.

She is almost a grown woman these days. A senior in college. Almost a teacher. Soon she will be in a big girl job, and she will be off doing her own adventures even more than she is now.

I am SO PROUD of her.

And sometimes more than anything I wish she was still here making crafts and spilling glitter and paint on my table….

Moral of the story….what you will miss is the time, not the the table. Don’t wish it away by being upset about things that really don’t matter.

Looking back at my time with my kids from this side of my life, I wish I would have known how tough them being gone would be, and how much these little reminders of that time would mean.

Like I said I am proud of them. I am glad they are soaring. And go figure, I’m not as worried about the condition of my table as I thought I would be.

I kind of wish it just had more glue….